Last night’s online scene

We don’t usually do much in the way of cyber and phone sex, but occasionally we go there. Last night we kind of stumbled into it when I said I wished she were here to suck my cock and she said, “What if I didn’t want to suck your cock?”

The scene that stemmed from that ventured into our typical headspace of spanking and bondage, etc, but she remained defiant and bratty. Finally I had enough, and announced that she could very well stay tied up and watch as I got my cock sucked by someone else them. “I like to watch,” she declared.

I described the woman, and the blowjob she gave me, making sure to incorporate some of L’s favorite things to do or have done to he, and making especially sure to describe how pleasurable it was for me.

When it came time for me to cum, she began to whine. “Please don’t give your cum to her…”

After some begging and apologizing, I finally conceded, describing how the other woman would stroke my cock and help to direct my cum onto L’s face, and their shared messy kiss afterwards.

I am a bit torn about how I decided to let the end play out. On one hand, she absolutely would have learned a lesson about denying me if I had stayed strict.  On the other, I prefer to encourage rather than discourage the idea of us playing with another woman. Also, this scene, as with most things between us was more playful than serious, and allowing her to receive was as much a reward for the fun scene as it was a capitulation to her begging.

I think.

The other thing to consider about the scene is ho it applies to potential scenes in reality. We already discussed that finding a woman willing to act out a similar scene would be unlikely, not much in it for her.

Visited L Again …

… and had a very nice time.

The relationship is going very well, though I have a few really minor concerns. I continue to worry about her having another slump, but like I said before, I am enjoying things as they are and just keeping my antennae up in case signals start to show.  On thing that I am starting to notice is he continual state of surprise that I love and care for her and am not going to flip out and dump her the second she’s a little bit crabby or difficult.  I guess I am a little concerned that  someone who doesn’t feel they deserve love might be afraid to not respond in kind, regardless of her own feelings. Or this is just me trying to find a reason that my guard should be up. *shrugs*

We were restricted to one afternoon/evening of real “play” because of her roommate (we got a hotel for one night), and that went nicely. We mostly concentrated on new sensations for her. Being bound was a big one, as was flogging, which she was hesitant about but now likes better than the crop. We unfortunately had trouble with nipple clamps, as she has very tiny nipples. They just kept popping right out. I had picked the tweezer kind because they seemed like the best bet, but maybe a counterintuitive choice would work better nect time? It’s a shame because she likes nipple-play in general and really enjoyed what little use we did get out of the clamps. Wax dripping turned out to be overly painful for her.

I worked on trying to fist her again. I think this might be something we just always enjoy the process of without ever reaching the “goal”, which is absolutely fine. Getting her to the point where she wants more but can’t handle it has been enjoyable to both of us.

One thing we didn’t get to do that I had hoped to was to engage in some sort of semi-public adventure. Partly it was too cold to do anything remotely outside, partly we just weren’t out in public all that much, and when we were it just wasn’t a suitible situation. Another time, perhaps…

We did a lot of non-sexual stuff that was great too. Dining out of course, as we are both foodies, seeing a performance at Carnegie Hall, and just being together.

Missing in action

In a way I feel I’ve been remiss for not posting in over a week. On the other hand, there isn’t much going on.

L has been in much better spirits and we are both excited about my visit this coming week-end. We are only going to be able to have one day of serious BDSM play because of her roommate, but I think that’s a good proportion related to the length of my visit anyway.

The other day, a former sub messaged me, A. She keeps popping back up from time to time., usually seeking somewhere to vent about her curent Master. Very occasionally, liek this time, there is an aspect of her wanting to explore whether we can be together again. I think there are very few people in this world that can handle “yes I am with someone else now and no I don’t want to dump them to get back together” very well. She was a lot better about it this time than she was last time, I’ll give her that. Last time she was insistent that I could have her too and that if I didn’t take her I was abandoning her when she needed me and so forth. She did make the suggestion this time that I could Dom two different women at the same time, but wasn’t demanding and accepted my “no”.

I am sort of poly on a theoretical level, I just can’t see it working for me in practical terms.