On my way…

In about 12 hours she’ll be in my arms again.  Shortly after that… well, we’ll save the juicy stories until after they happen

Who’s idea was it to build this continent so wide, anyway?

Kink mirror

Am I sexually attracted to animals at all? No.

Have I ever been involved in a sexual “scene” that involved an animal? No.

Would I? It probably depends on who I am with…

As I discussed in my most recent previous post, I don’t really have any significant kinks of my own, and as a Dom, I tend to focus on exploring those of my sub instead. The more she likes pain, the more of a sadist I am. Whatever submissive role she sees herself in, I find myself filling the complementary role.

I was in a relationship last year with a woman, it wasn’t precisely D/s, but it wasn’t not, either, I did Top her in the bedroom, but we didn’t have a structure for our relationship outside of that. The further we got into the bedroom D/s though, the more it began to leak out into the rest of the relationship, and who knows where it would have wound up had it lasted longer?

The point I was getting to was her kinks. She’d had sort of an early, sneaky, shameful, exciting beginning to her sexuality that she started to open up and talk to me about a lot – and one of her early exeriences was encouraging the family dog to lick her pussy.  All of us have probably done some sort of sexual experimentation that doesn’t really mean anything, but the nervous excitement in her attitude indicated an open door…

Was it a one time thing, or did she keep doing it? She did it at least occasionally until she moved out, even after she started having sex with boys…

Did she ever do anything else sexual with the dog? Well, it was a girl dog you see…

Would she have? She had a lot of dirty thoughts at that age…

But, would she have? She used to wish it were a boy dog so she could try…

The discussion went on, over a series of separate conversations as she opened up more and eventually I learned that she had actually avoided owning and being alone around dogs all of her adult life over the “fear” of what she might do. It wasn’t long before we were talking about what might happen if we bought a dog… discussing the merits of various breeds…

Now that she’s gone, am I dissapointed those fantasies were never fulfilled? A little, it’s unfinished business, but that is with her. I don’t find myself seeking out women with the same desires. I don’t watch porn with animals in it. I don’t push my current sub in that direction. If L were to suddenly admit to similar feelings, I’d probably clip a leash to her collar an get out in front of her right away, but I have no desire to introduce it on my own.

Sometimes it makes me wonder what kink I wouldn’t explore with someone. There are certainly things that I would never do or encourage someone else to do, but pushing someone into depravity is probably my only strong sadist streak. Well, that, and tickling

Ages

My L is 12 years younger than I am.  I am not only, or even predominantly, attracted to younger women, but I have been making note of the fact that my two most easy/natural/pleasing D/s relationships have been with women who are. C was 15 years younger than I am…

In part, I think it tends to sync with the sort of Dom that I am… with a nurturing, somewhat permissive, mentoring, loving, cuddly side. Some people call this a “Daddy Dom”, though it should be said that neither C nor L (thus far) have called me Daddy. I have been called Daddy by a sub much closer to my own age. I think, aside from just individual differences in kink, there’s something to the idea of connecting this to young people wanting to grow up and older people longing for their youth. L doesn’t have to pretend to be younger,  more vulnerable, less experienced – she already is.

Perhaps that train even thought even has some connection to the fact that, as she gets on her feet more and establishes her adult life in her new locale, L has begun to spend more time thinking about our age difference. One thing which stood out last week was, during a discussion in which I mentioned the adult child I would have if there hadn’t been a miscarriage, she mentioned that, had I started really early (perhaps with some cute young teacher at my Junior High? haha), it was actually possible for me to be her father. The noticable lack of an “ew” after that statement was a departure from previous mentionings of this subject. To have that be followed this week by a Teacher/student scenario opened up by her in chat has got me thinking about the potential paths that lie ahead.

Would I enjoy having her call me Daddy instead of Sir or Master? It does have an appeal – but I do have reservations about how effectively I can fulfill that role from so far away.

As a Dom, I tend to be a bit of a mirror. I like being in control, I like impact play, biting, pinching, and bondage. Beyond that, I don’t really have much in the way of my own kinks, and I tend to focus on exploring those of my sub. I guess that’s sort of a kink in it’s own right, pushing, opening, expanding my submissive… It’s led me to some interesting places.

Slacking

Yeah, I haven’t been posting much.

There’s a couple of reasons for this. One is that, being in a long-distance relationship wiht my L, there hasn’t been much to talk about. The second is that I’ve made a close acquaintance here whom I talk to through other channela and usually vent whatever I do have to talk about before I get here.

I’m going to work on being more present in this venue. If nothing else, I will have my upcoming visit with L this Friday to post about