Fake it until you make it? « The Private Thoughts of the Man They Call Sir

Fake it until you make it?

I don’t know what is wrong with it.

I know a dozen things off the top of my head that are right with it.

She is good to me. So good. She adores everything I do. She supports me. She likes who I am.

I feel like I should leave before she is too reliant on me.

I fear that if I leave, it will be T all over again, that I will regret pushing her away and that the reason I do so will seem stupid in hindsight.

Am I just trying to keep other options open?

Am I just staying for the cuddles and blowjobs?

WTF is wrong with me?

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on April 15, 2009 at 5:08 pm Comments (3)
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On April 16, 2009 at 1:42 am kittypet Said:

the fear of knowing we are open to such incredible pain

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On April 16, 2009 at 6:54 pm attenshun Said:

sometimes all you need is time

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On April 28, 2009 at 1:32 am sharon Said:

i have been afraid of commitment. i had to step back & really decide what i wanted for myself. Once i figured that part out, i didn’t settle for anything less. We have been together almost 2 years now. Stay calm, and don’t make any rushed decisions.

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